It has been so long! I know, I know, I’m sorry for being away for such a lengthy chunk of time. So why don’t I catch you up.
First things first, I finally moved... two months ago. It was a tough time. I had one panic attack after another. Between moving and work, I was not holding up very well. I’m still not quite to where I was before. For heaven's sake, it took a lot just to get out of the house to come here to Chronic Town. One thing at a time, I guess. Packing for the move was the easy part. The actual leaving and taking everything forty-five miles away to the new house was a different story. It was a slow process, that kinda felt rushed. If that makes any sense. To sum it up, the move took a lot out of everyone. Then there was the cleaning and the unpacking, blah blah blah. I didn’t even put my bed together until last week. Not sure why, I guess it just felt so final. Now I love the house, and I’m finally getting used to the drive from home to work.
And work….not a fun subject. As I said before, I have had several panic attacks the last few months. That meant leaving work early or calling off because of them, several times. My job is finally having enough of it. The past week, I was suspended because of my attendance. For most of the week, I’ve been holding myself up in my room, not doing much of anything. Yesterday was the first time I really left the house. I went to see my friends, I missed them. Now today, I left to come to my favorite writing spot. Just for a small amount of time. But hey, that’s better than nothing. It means I’m trying.
Now and then, I remember to use breathing and other coping techniques for my anxiety. But if I’m going to be honest with you, I forget to use them half the time. It just is different when you are on the cusp of it all. However, I am trying to remind myself to use what I’ve learned (the breathing techniques seem to work the best). You’re just going to have to bare with me here. I promise I’ll do better at keeping you all updated.
A long time ago, I wrote about herbs and supplements to help with stress and anxiety. For certain, the lavender helps the most. I tried taking GABA and L-Theanine. However neither seems to be helping. That could possibly just be me. Especially since I pair them with my regular medications. I’m not sure which I will try next. But when I know, you’ll know. That’s how I usually run this blog.
That’s been my last few months. I know it doesn’t sound like a lot, but to me, it is. A lot of the time was moving and getting used to the new house. Basically it’s been one anxious moment after another. I swear though, I am trying my best here. I also promise to keep you all updated better. I want to thank you all for being with me this far. You have no idea how much that means to me.
That is it for today guys. Thanks for being patient.
Until next time,